As a blogger, I interact with a lot of people who are younger than I am. So many of them are in their 20’s, trying to figure out life and I am in my late 30’s and thankfully I have gone through quite a bit of the life lesson’s that bring you past that particular stage in life. But one thing that I have in common with my younger counterparts is that I am starting a new dream…This blog. It is about 8 months old. I am very focused on making this into a vehicle that I can use inspire others in many ways. But sometimes I wonder about my space in this game. What happens when you find your fire later. Can it be too late to hustle? Is it too late?
I know many well-meaning people will automatically say no and scroll down and write a comment telling me how I have to just keep going and it’s not too late. Hi well-meaning :), hold that keystroke one second, please. I appreciate your sentiments in advance but don’t misunderstand me… I KNOW that nothing is impossible and age is just that, but is there something to be said about being young and pursuing a goal. There is just a little less risk to you at say 24 years old because you are at an age where there is a lot more perceived time for trial and error. There is less impact of those voices that are a lot more critical and demanding at my age. When I listen to some of my favorite podcasts, many women are already at “BOSS” level with their dreams. They are busy smiling in IG stories at a retreats surrounded by other women who have already tread the path that I am just starting here (I’m so unsubtly subbing you queens at the recent My Taught You Retreat!) It’s also frustrating because I have become successful in other areas of my life and I almost feel like I am starting my real interests now. Here I am in the middle of a 20-year career that has been extremely handy in allowing me to pursue other goals, but the truth is my career wasn’t my #1 goal. I was good at it and it paid well, so I just kept pouring my attention into that. And finally, at year 19 I decided I found what I want to focus on and I feel a little behind…A little late. I am saying all of this to say, there has to be room to share concerns without it being interpreted as self-defeatist. There has to be a voice that speaks to the life that didn’t necessarily follow the path we are told life follows or the career path we are told we have to follow. That was a huge reason I started this blog. Where was the voice of the 30+ woman who has changed course? Where is the person who decided to take the leap of faith and documented the changes and challenges? Well here is there answer, I am she! She is me! (I hear The Light and Open your eyes playing in my head for some reason, do you know that song, I like John Legend’s version). If you don’t know it… There is a lyric in this song that says, I’ll take my chances before they pass, pass me by. There is a light that shines, special for you and me. You need to look at the other side. Darling open your eyes… Isn’t that dreamy and at the same time true! It seems like opportunities pass us by because we didn’t take the risk or stick with the dream through the discomfort.
I am hoping that me being transparent about my concerns can be of some help to you. This isn’t a crybaby moment, this is a realization moment. While you are making adjustments to gear up for that success, the water can be a bit murky. Change is never fun while you are making it. And yet here, I am…Changing and Challenging myself in more and more ways. And guess what!? Progress can be slow going. Which is an extra challenge! This is quite interesting to me you guys. Have you ever experienced this? I’m interested in your thoughts on challenging yourself in your life. Do you have hangups that are self-inflicted or injected into society? I can’t be alone here. If you know of someone in this space, text them and offer your support. I am sure they can use it.